Thursday, June 13, 2013

Friday, June 7, 2013

Sunday, June 2, 2013

crap

hi.

feelin like crap is the last thing i wanna feel right now.

the worst thing is when, the support that we thought have didnt back us up.

and ignoring me at this kind of time really shows who are u really are!.


please go and fucked yourself up!

xoxo,
Cydah

hmmm

hi. 

ok i tried so many times to upload my painting of late amy jade winehouse. it wont seems to be uploading. might be my data usage has already reach its limit.
i will keep trying again and again. 

xoxo, 
Cydah

Friday, May 31, 2013

this and that

hi.
it beennn a months since my last update.
well, i got few of things going on. with  a new job, exams, and project that i will be starting soon.

last post i thought why dont i just post my daily journal in my diary. and there i was writting on my diary. on and on and on. until i am too tired to write because normally i write before go to sleep.

and so, it became a habit of not writting. because this year, my resolution is to write . DAILY!!!

and i start all over again.

well, as for upcoming project, im just too excited and really i want to talk on that project. but i cant.

anyhow.. as i was studying for my ACCA exams, it really stressed me out and and i started to paint. just a 10min sketch. because i dont think it deserve to be call a painting. whatever.

. ok something is not right with my tablet. letme just post this post. and i will share with you my amy winehouse.

xoxo,
cydah

Saturday, April 6, 2013

what number are you?

STORY BEHIND YOUR DATE OF BIRTH !!!! Interesting !!

Hey this is really true and see it will work for you too

If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1....

If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2...

If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3...

If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4...

If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5...

If U were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then U r number 6...

If U were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then U r number 7...

If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8...

If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9...

Number 1

You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest,Jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authorities,Famous

person...always want to be and regarded as first on people position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident

people!
You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite

views
And you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future.

If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the

heart of the parliament because you are positive and well talented in numerous issues!! But in your life you will always have some people who will work

hard to bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some people too...

Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children... You are pioneer, independent & original...

Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!

Number 2

No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. You are a person who day dream a lot,

you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to

time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication.

Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does

peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home).

If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your words

are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge you can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, any Artistic business

people!

You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If U r

a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or Vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of

Your family...You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!

Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!

Number 3

You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within

your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. So wherever you go always

you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get anything without hard

work! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than

them. You do set so many examples to others.

Generally you are not a cool person. It's not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone's attitude then here you

go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others.

Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won't be long.. you will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too

much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it's over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will

spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will
be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always

follow.

You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition

focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!

Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!

Number 4

You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough word power.. Might put lots

of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a

girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost) at times, you will have sort of too

much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don't

know what to do... So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!!

Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love

in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing... but you will be unemployed.. or will

do very ordinary jobs.

But you will take care of your family very well...All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your

relations too..

You are radical, patient, persistent,a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order...

Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!

Number 5

You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by just chatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are

often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are a person who does anything when your head thinks "lets do this". You will be

famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humor ,you are the one your friends and families

will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u

get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tend to go for

other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times 'coz your popularity..

You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic

on your face. You learn your life through experience and it's your best teacher!!!

Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!

Number 6

Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You don't care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very

good in either education or work wise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls

and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for

love.

You are lovable by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than

few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family &

friends . If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness

with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this

world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further...

Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5 !!!

Number 7

You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts,

singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above.

You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a

guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life.

Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime.

It's probably the Lord given you all sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready

looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don't, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue,
ok?

You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!

Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!

Number 8

You are a very strong personality, there's no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say "this is

what".
You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking

after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life.

The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may

die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others.

Well. once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems

such as : the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents.

You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a

fighter!

Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!

Number 9

Hey...you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally... You are often have big-aims. You will work hard

and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life.. But when you achieve what

you have done, it's always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and

successfully finish the matter off.

You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life

time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type.

Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you.

Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children.

Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate.

You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice.

You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.

Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

xoxo,
cydah

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Street mascara online shop

Hi.
So i decided to do online shop too.
So, anyone anywho wants to order just let me know.
All product will be update later.

Xoxo,
Cydah

Sunday, March 10, 2013

journal, meet monologue

Hi.
last post I was talking bout my new way of keeping track of my daily life kan.
so here it is.

the first page.


I can't upload what the cover looks like.
nanti some people will know. 

xoxo,
Cydah


Saturday, March 9, 2013

Back to the oldies and live it up

Heyy Gorgeous.

Back to the oldies are mostly used by fashion.
Anyway, that is not what this post is all about.

Since my life is going to be quite busy ahead , I dont think I can blog as much I think I used to.
Hence, I decided to buy a diary book and it will keep track of my daily events.
Not that much of events, but things that I want to remember, something for me to embrace in the future.

Along, I just went for interview today.
I dont think that I can get the position.
Well, I dont have working experience and other candidates,they just freak me out.
It is not a high level yet again I think most of the candidates are over qualified for that position.

Not that I need a job so ever,
It's just that I need the working experience.

Anyhow, that beautiful lady who interviewed me said, I most probably get the position.
Want to know why?

She said,
"We are an international company and it is great for us to have you because not many malay can speak in english very well"

I know I am not that great,I still speaks manglish but still, I am trying to improvise myself and so should you in any part that needs the improvement.

Most of us,upgrade our blog to be nice, pretty and all that, why dont we upgrade our human skills and live the life outside internet. not just apply to blog

Communication skill is something you can start with.
Different situation requires different way of communication.
I dont know bout you guys. But I consider myself at number 5 in communication skills.

Messages for today,

                          Let us upgrade ourselves for today,tomorrow and hereafter.

xoxo,
Cydah


Tuesday, March 5, 2013

14 Different Methodologies of Mind Control

These are the most necessary to understand because they are the most influential over mass consciousness.

1) Obfuscation: Just basic confusion of one thing for another- a smoke and mirrors game.

2) World View Poisoning: Conditioning the way people view human nature and their own self-value.


3) Conditioning of Primal Fear: The exploitation of primal fears.


4) Divide and Conquer Strategy: Highlight any perceived differences between people and then exploit those differences to create infighting so they are easier to control and conquer.


5) Indoctrination of Education System: A left brain form of Nazis called it mastery learning. grade school, HS and university. Trivium and quadrivium education could counteract this.


6) Controlled Opposition: Basic dialectics - dialectical mechanics or Hegelianism Creating conflict that you already have an outcome management system for. Create the conflict and wait for a type of reaction to the conflict (usually chaotic that demands a resolution) and then you step in and resolve it. Artificial conflict resolution.


7) Monetary System of Control: Debt based fiat currency fractional reserve banking a system of illusion that we call money yet people believe in it like its a religion or god. People seem to be the most powerless to come out of. It exists purely in the mind.


8) Control of Mass Media: If you can control the info that people get to see hear and read you control their perception of reality. If you limit the scope of what they can take into their minds and awareness you limit their possibilities of solutions. Human perception management.


9) Food and Medicine: attack on the physical aspects of the body relates to how our brain development goes. You affect thought and consciousness you are what you eat. Use techniques that are damaging to consciousness through the modern medical system


10) Illusion of Time: Very important for people to grasp. Play on people’s seeming inability to live in true present moment awareness-- getting people to live in regret over the past or anxiety over the future. Its a fear based technique. Takes us out of true present awareness. Being fully present now to take on what is happening now. If our consciousness can be manipulated into always looking into what has happened. It takes away effectiveness of dealing with the current situation.


11) The DHR Factor: Denial, Hassle, Ridicule: What other people perceive about you. Denial, hassle ridicule factor. Things are fine the way they are I don’t want to rock the boat because I may have to deal with hassle of other people. The hassle free zone is-- I don’t want all the uncomfortable aspects of life that come with standing up for truth. These are all fear based. Heightening those three forms of mental instability. Trap of inactivity and not really doing anything to make things better.


12) Religion: We need to understand these last three the best. Religion is a form of binding. To tie back Re-Ligare tying back. Forms of modern religion are mind control based on astro-theology. Giving people an exoteric version of something that was once esoteric or internal. Government is the binding on the left brain... religion is the binding of the right brain.


13) Use of Subversive Symbolism: Based on ancient sacred symbolism. Based on symbols that have been with us from antiquity. Solar symbolism, life force symbols, energy, blood, or anything we need for existence and life. They use these in modern institutions--- banks, police, media, stores. We’re drenched in it. Basic symbols have a powerful psychic influence. They can speak to us without words. A wordless form of communication. Connects to occultism.


14) Problem-Reaction-Solution (Chaos Sorcery): A mass demonstration or a public display of the dark aspects of the Hegelian dialectic. Hegelian dialectic can be used in a positive or negative sense. Chaos sorcery or false flag terrorism. This is ritual magic being used openly in the light of day. You are creating a chaotic situation in the light of day and you know it will elicit an extreme reaction of fear and chaos that demands order be brought as soon as possible. You are manipulating the fear in the limbic system-- people are not in a state that they can reason. They are demanding solutions purely out of emotions. They are in a reactive mode of consciousness. They want the outcome of the game known before the game is played. Interject chaos, you know the reaction its going to cause and you know. A leap in consciousness will subvert this technique. This technique works over and over again. Humanity won’t wake up. 9-11 was chaos sorcery.

We need to make the public aware of these techniques so people can become street wise to them. Spread the knowledge through your community. The universe is spoken into existence.

Copy from knowledge of today

xoxo,
Cydah



Sunday, February 24, 2013

Wall stickers anyone?

Hi.
So anyone want to but wall stickers?


RM40 including postage

RM50 including postage


RM35 including postage

Feel free to ask me anything regarding this product

Saturday, February 16, 2013

Again, shopping

Hi.
I am very tired today. but in the good way.
I've got to spent time with my love one even for approximately 2 hours.
Yet again, I am so happy to see him.

Anyway, after long drive, I reached home and all of sudden that shopping instinct tingling.
So, my brother and I went to Segget. 
As always, shoe is my main target. eventhough it's a "pasar malam" shoe, I kinda like it the moment i saw them.
As in my wishlist to have 12 colors of shoes, well, 10 more to go.
Pretend the orange is for January. hehe


RED FOR FEBRUARY 



And grab piece of earring.



I dont know why I bought these things. But I will wear em I guess.
Another bad habit, shop and make a collections.
I still can shop even with RM10 in my purse.
It just a habit that I dont know good or bad. 
Well, its bad I guess.

Some people like to shop for clothes but I not that interested in shopping clothes.
Again, I will spend on shoe,earring,bangle,handbag, accessories. 

Plooop plop ploppp

xoxo,
Cydah


Wednesday, February 13, 2013

my choco pie

Hi.
I have a really bad craving for foods.
Last two day I keep craving for chocolate pie.
So I made a chocolate pie today.

Chocolate pie

As you can see,the pie crust has be ate by impatient people. haha
It is now safely in freezer . Tomorrow we can start digging the pie.

While waiting the crust to bake, I made the chocolate filling and it is delicious.
I even lick the spatula.

Spatula licking good

I save some of chocolate as a bread spread for tomorrow .
I bet it will last within 3days.

Can't wait for tomorrow. :D

xoxo,
Cydah 



oh my lilies

Hi.
Lilies are my favorite because of its scent.
It could last days and week.

There is one person taught me how to maintain flower after bought it.
Put one or two aspirin in the water and put the flower in the water.

Well, it does work.

I remember that day when we shop for lilies.
It still doesn't bloom.
and we have to keep it for 2 days.
And lilies are sensitive to heat.
So, we kept lilies in an air-conditioning room.
About 18° celcius.

and for that 2 days, scent of lilies surround the entire bungalow.
however, lilies stamen (brown,reddish color)  really something i dislike.
if it touch your shirt, the stain wont go away.





Some women like rose, but I prefer lilies.

xoxo,
Cydah

Monday, February 11, 2013

kini dan esok


" You must be in the deepest dark to find the light "

Hi.
haa. quote ini samalah ertinya macam peribahasa/pantun melayu;

" Berakit- rakit ke hulu,
Berenang-renang ke tepian,
Bersakit-sakit dahulu,
Bersenang-senang kemudian "

Berrmaksud, untuk senang, selalunya akan ada waktu susahnya dahulu.
Tidak akan ada senang berguling-guling begitu sahaja.

Kadang-kadang kita hanya fikir nasib kita sekarang seperti penat bekerja lah, penat belajar lah.
But at end of the day, the pay slip yang kita dapat tu la buatkan rasa susah tu terangkat dari bebanan kita.
Yes, kalau nak diikutkan ada yang kerja teruk tapi dapat gaji yang tak seberapa.
Ada saja yang mengeluh.

Tapi kalau pandai menguruskan kewangan sendiri, mungkin tidak akan rasa sempit.
Sebab kalau nak suruh majikan naikkan gaji instantly memang tak dapat la kan.
And worst,gaji naik, lepas beberapa hari tiba-tiba barang harian naik.
So, financial management itu penting.

Sakit-sakit dahulu, kumpul duit untuk kahwin misalnya. 
Kadang-kadang tu ada yang sampai cut entertainment expense kan.
But its worth a while .
Bila da kahwin, bole je ber'entertainment' bersama kan.

Ada macam-macam pandangan orang tentang hal ini.
Yang penting diri anda sendiri bagaimana mahu menilai masa sekarang dan merancang masa hadapan.

xoxo,
Cydah